I am Ebullient

I've been doing weight watchers for almost 2 months and I am pretty much back to the beginning after todays weigh in. It may be due to multiple things including yesterdays Easter Dinner and a lovely drink called a 'side car'. I am not going to let it get me down. I knew I'd be up so if I wanted to keep assuming I was losing weight I would have skipped the meeting. I feel like I have made some steps in the right direction. I started going to aqua aerobics. This is 3 times a week. I will need to walk, do a DVD or play a kinect game. Btw... The Michael Jackson Experience is freaking awesome. Jen is going to help me more with recipes and food. I need to start fighting cravings & nit allow the cravings to win. It's a new dawn it's a new day!

Suming up the week. I was not good with food. I started lasted Sunday with throwing a baby shower for Angie. I hope she enjoyed it. I wish I could have done more or bought more but I guess I have the rest of my life to spoil little Gargatron. I didn't go to my WW meeting on Monday because I didn't want to see I didn't lose and because I went to spend the evening with Amber & Stella. Great night plus we were able to get FaceTime to work so we can talk & see each other & I can see Stella learn the world from my own living room. Jen Z was awesome on Wednesday and went with me to Target to find me a swim suit. Obviously since I am trying to lose weight this trip has been something I have been dreading. Jen was a real sport to go on this trip with me and to help me find a swim suit. I should have gone the next day to a aqua aerobics class but allergies and just being tired too the win... Also I felt like a adult beverage. I don't quite know what my deal...

I won't be going to tonights meeting because I am going out to see Amber after work.  I am very excited about that.   I weighed myself this morning, like every Monday and I am up a lb from last week.  I said I felt like I was bloated/swollen and probably due to the steroids.   I am putting it into high gear this week.  Tracking everything!   My back is also feeling so much better and if I am good by Wednesday we are back to working out.  My back was never sore it just had a spasm.  It can happen so I wasn't over doing it.    Time to get back to work on this shit!  A friend lost 16 lbs with Jillian Michaels in a month... I can too!!! Note to self: ask her about that!!

Here I am 5 days later.  The pain is not as bad as it was in the begining but there is still quite the discomfort and tightness and pain.  Have you ever looked up 'muscle spasm'?  A sudden, involuntary muscle contraction. Acute pain, marked by limited range of motion, fasciculation, and increased EMG activity even resting may be present. There is acute onset of pain at rest as well as with function. I fell like a spasm should be lots of contractions but it isn't.  It is like putting the muscles on lock down. Having this pain is really messing with my head.  It is putting me into a depression.  I don't want to do things.  I don't want to talk.  I want to eat and just lay on the couch.  This is what I am trying to get away from!!