I am Ebullient

I must say.. I am pretty impressed with myself for going to the gym 4 out of 7 days. I am still working on making it a habit, either going to the gym or going for a walk. I did pretty good on food this week too, except Wednesday, but I went to the gym before my anger about the dentist took me to taco bell - but I didn't get a soda so the dentist should be happy. So this week I do more... 5 or 6 days out of 7. Keep doing better on food & continue to stay away from fast-food. Sounds easy.... Right. I'm working on myself.... Reinventing My Life!

Just seems like I am getting bigger and not smaller at all. Without Jen & a training I probably would have already quit.

With a busy weekend behind me I now have goals from my trainer. Small goal... Swim 300 Meters by the end. Of September. Weekly goals.. Walk 2-3 times a week. Bike once a week. Swim/aqua twice a week. Then I have a weights to lifts 2-3 times a week. Then random chair dips & push-ups. Long term goal.... Get this weight off in 6 month so I can go skiing!!! I am going to meet a nutritionist and get food on track!!! Damn food is my biggest problem. Any help is appreciated! Tonight did a mini triathlon - walked 30 min. Swam/aqua for a good 30 min (plus relaxed in the hot tub) then picked up some Subway and came home to bike for 15 minutes. Gotta get my rear retrained for a bike. I didn't wear the padded shorts!!! Already good in my mind. Now inches and fat... Get off of me. I got dream to fulfill!!

Today I had the second meeting with my new trainer. I met with her Saturday and had a consultation. Later I tried to learn how to swim. Today when we met we did some talking about heart rates. She explained more about Suzanne Edwards program and then did the heart rate testing. After the testing that showed me my personal 60% - 65% - 70% rates. Those are the fat burning zones for me. Pretty much means 111 - 120 - 130 are my ranges that match the percenta. I shouldn't be over 130 bpm to be the the fat burning zone. I tried doing some ChaLEAN Extreme later in the morning and couldn't believe how high my heart rate went just doing the warm up. So probably doing ChaLEAN Extreme and Turbo Fire won't work with this heart rate program. I guess in really am going to have to start walking, which I find extremely boring. I hope to break that up with swimming. I like water aerobics but the trying to swim laps was interesting & kind of fun. Other issues: - My dryer is still cr...

This Sunday started like any other.  I woke up from a bad dream and it was early.  Did a little FB post and said I was bored.  Moments later the opportunity to go to the shooting range.  (No idea why but just typing or saying that just feels wrong.)  I drove out to meet Paul and got to sit outside and enjoy the weather with Paul and my cousins, Sue & Kim.  Kim lives next door to Paul, which is how I met him. So after the time with the family I got the run down of 2 rifles and 2 pistols and then safety tips.  I have to say I was pretty freaked out.  I haven't really touched a gun before and there I was standing in front of 4 of them.  It definitely didn't feel like I was just watching a TV show.  So we left to go to  August A. Busch Conservation Area Shooting Range .    There were rules of the range.  How long you get to shoot, what happens when you cease fire, going to change out your target... just all sort...

I've been doing weight watchers for almost 2 months and I am pretty much back to the beginning after todays weigh in. It may be due to multiple things including yesterdays Easter Dinner and a lovely drink called a 'side car'. I am not going to let it get me down. I knew I'd be up so if I wanted to keep assuming I was losing weight I would have skipped the meeting. I feel like I have made some steps in the right direction. I started going to aqua aerobics. This is 3 times a week. I will need to walk, do a DVD or play a kinect game. Btw... The Michael Jackson Experience is freaking awesome. Jen is going to help me more with recipes and food. I need to start fighting cravings & nit allow the cravings to win. It's a new dawn it's a new day!

Suming up the week. I was not good with food. I started lasted Sunday with throwing a baby shower for Angie. I hope she enjoyed it. I wish I could have done more or bought more but I guess I have the rest of my life to spoil little Gargatron. I didn't go to my WW meeting on Monday because I didn't want to see I didn't lose and because I went to spend the evening with Amber & Stella. Great night plus we were able to get FaceTime to work so we can talk & see each other & I can see Stella learn the world from my own living room. Jen Z was awesome on Wednesday and went with me to Target to find me a swim suit. Obviously since I am trying to lose weight this trip has been something I have been dreading. Jen was a real sport to go on this trip with me and to help me find a swim suit. I should have gone the next day to a aqua aerobics class but allergies and just being tired too the win... Also I felt like a adult beverage. I don't quite know what my deal...

I won't be going to tonights meeting because I am going out to see Amber after work.  I am very excited about that.   I weighed myself this morning, like every Monday and I am up a lb from last week.  I said I felt like I was bloated/swollen and probably due to the steroids.   I am putting it into high gear this week.  Tracking everything!   My back is also feeling so much better and if I am good by Wednesday we are back to working out.  My back was never sore it just had a spasm.  It can happen so I wasn't over doing it.    Time to get back to work on this shit!  A friend lost 16 lbs with Jillian Michaels in a month... I can too!!! Note to self: ask her about that!!

Here I am 5 days later.  The pain is not as bad as it was in the begining but there is still quite the discomfort and tightness and pain.  Have you ever looked up 'muscle spasm'?  A sudden, involuntary muscle contraction. Acute pain, marked by limited range of motion, fasciculation, and increased EMG activity even resting may be present. There is acute onset of pain at rest as well as with function. I fell like a spasm should be lots of contractions but it isn't.  It is like putting the muscles on lock down. Having this pain is really messing with my head.  It is putting me into a depression.  I don't want to do things.  I don't want to talk.  I want to eat and just lay on the couch.  This is what I am trying to get away from!!

To make the story short, I have had 2 back surgeries in less than a year.  The doctor didn't say I had to do therapy so I have been working out at home.  I even thought I was seeing a difference.  All the doctor really said after the 2nd surgery was the same as after the 1st surgery - lose weight. On Monday afternoon I sat down and my muscles just tightened up.  After talking with a nurse on Tuesday (since my doctor is out of the country) she thinks it is a muscle spasm.  Well holy crap this is a painful muscle spasm, which for me is just a tightening of the muscles. I was stuck in bed all day yesterday and today I am still in bed.  I absolutely hate this.  This is not how you live life! I started taking a steriod pack this morning.  On the first day you take the most so I can only hope it helps.  I am also taking a muscle relaxer.  I can only hope that doing everything I can think of to keep my back safe is going to work.  I am st...

Well every time I turn around it is babies babies babies.  I love it! Sure at times I wish it was me but my friends are all pretty awesome.  They all know how bad I want to be a mom so they are all so good with letting me be there.  I hope I help them too!  They are all being such great moms.  I am so proud of them. But the reason for this post is that my friend called me yesterday.  We don't do phones too much so when she is calling I know there is something going on.  She and her husband have been trying to adopt.  They already have a awesome little boy who is 3 years old but they wanted more children and it just wasn't happening.  So they decided to look into adoption.  We talked about all this a lot since I am adopted.  She wanted mine and my moms take on a few things.  On the side, in case anyone cares - I love my parents and my sister (who is also adopted).  I couldn't have asked for better!  I love th...

Why was I thinking about writing a blog about, well me? Sounds kind of selfish when you think about a blog but you need things to pass the time and to vent.  Anyway I woke up on this cold Sunday morning at 5 AM.  That is earlier than a normal work day.  Of course I wanted to go back to bed so I started looking for a movie to watch.  Julie & Julie was on encore.  Now you know what made me think of a blog.  I have started 2 other blogs in the past that I let die.  There was one for working out/becoming a Beachbody coach and another called "Suck It Up Sister".  I don't even remember why I made the Suck It Up Sister.  It sounds like I was pissed about things and needed to get over it. I am sure there will be suck it up moments in this blog but not just those moments. I doubt this will be a daily update it probably won't even be bi-weekly.  Just as things happen. It may be happy, entertaining, depressing or confusing but I thi...